Lost It Day

Little frustrations can still send me over the bend.  I am embarrassed about yesterday.  It started with a notice that I had a loan from Edward Jones.  I knew I had never taken out any loan so was panicky about what this could mean.  I left them a panicked message.  I got the details - seems I need to sell stuff as even though I showed money in the account, I didn't actually have enough cash for the furnace so they didn't sell stuff and put it through as a loan through the portfolio.  Ok, I get that and now know what to do for further cash needs.  I then called the local person to explain what happened, was told by secretary that she is not allowed to take such a message and that I have to connect by phone with the broker.  Ugh!  How?  I gave a time; then got busy at work and forgot that I turn the ringer off when I'm in class.  I then try calling from home, but my son has errands for me so I left the phone in the car a couple of minutes.  She called again.  I ran for it but too late.  I call back.  Now she's in a meeting rest of day and won't call back.  This isn't going to work for me.  I need to be able to e-mail or leave a message so I know that's it taken care of because I get busy and forget and/or actually can't talk on the phone during business hours.  As this happened, I tried to use self checkout at Fred Meyer's to save time - BIG mistake as those machines are so dang sensitive that you have to go slow, look up produce codes, etc.  I'd have been better off waiting in the line and trying to find patience unlike my ADHD self.  Ditto for the traffic day when only for the grace of God did I make it to work without too long a wait/too much hassle.  Haste does make waste.  I can only hope this broker will agree to e-mail, but I suppose it won't come up that often.  Now I am anxious wondering if I can remember until Mon a.m. that she'll call my house and interrupt my crazed work prep - fing sucks!!!!  However, I did feel it was stupid to get so worked up about something that is beyond my control and my interaction with Diana was not the best.  I'm still sick.